May 2010
1 post
1 tag
I will follow you now wherever you go
Today when I was going to the grocery store, I was thinking about how relieved I’ll be to just be out of this town. There’s a sense of heaviness, an comfortableness and an anxiousness I have being here. I don’t want to be bothered by anyone I may run into. I don’t want to see the same people and the same places that I know will be stuck here, just as I have been for so many years. I don’t...
April 2010
1 post
3 tags
But it goes straight to message
I didn’t want my blog to be about complaints. I am a very happy person and I do not have any intention in being mean or hurtful to someone. Therefore my blog has to be a place to make my soliloquies. On one hand I want to be public in my outrage, but on the other hand I don’t want to take the time to bother with demonstrating how much my ex friend sucks. And she does.
I have received the...
March 2010
2 posts
A place in a home that is safe and warm
I’ve been sick for days and this is the first normal, productive act I’ve done since last week. I had food poisoning, or the flu, or something equally as retched and now I’m almost 100%. Still just tired all the time and that started early last week. I should have known it was coming on. I didn’t want to go to the gym, didn’t want to do any work, etc. Now I know why. I had to skip teaching...
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Looking down at the crumbs on the ground
In my classes, I’ve been talking about how when an author uses a clear blue sky, it’s supposed to represent clarity of conscious, being open minded, accepting God’s grace, hope, new life and opportunity. It won’t be long until my mister is here with me for a bit. Then as soon as I can get myself sorted and moved, I’m out of here. It’s not a place you want to make your life permanent; not...
February 2010
2 posts
1 tag
She keeps on waiting for time out there
As I sit here in the dark at 10PM, not doing anything productive other than typing in this blog, I’ve assumed a sense of complete stagnancy in my life here. Today, I was driving with my mother around town and I just all of a sudden realized, “Oh yeah, I really am alive, and really driving this car and really living here…even though it doesn’t feel like it.” It’s harder and harder to...
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A diary means yes indeed
So I’ve been writing more in my journals at home. I’ve been reading about journaling and I’ve found that if I just sit and give myself time to write there’s plenty to say. This week I’ve been kind of downcast as I could say. It started with getting ready to go to a baby shower; seeing old friends and knowing I had to be happy for the mother to be. And I am but it made me feel a bit more...
January 2010
4 posts
1 tag
So I went to your room and read your diary
I’m reading The New Diary which was written in 1978 and was revised in 2004. Although I don’t have that revised copy, I’ve searched through it via Amazon, and I see nothing in the index about blogs or online journals. That’s a whole section that could be included in the “Sharing” section. For me, my blog is the type of stuff I can have read at a semi protected level. Only my mister reads...
You know that I'm not scared to go home
I’ve finished the second week of teaching and the first week my student classes has started. The student classes seem fun for a change and the teacher classes are going well as far as I can tell. However, I’ve noticed something that I’m going through quite obviously that I’m working through. I’m defeating my fears one step at a time. Well, I should say more that I’m learning to get past the...
Teacher thinks that I sound funny but she likes...
This entry is a bit overdue, I realize. I had a busy week, which is a good thing, but I need to make sure I’m stopping to write. One of my New Year’s resolutions was to write each day and this blog needs periodic attention. Usually I have plenty to say about anything that happens in my daily life. I can write about writing if all else fails.
But this week I went back to teaching so I’ll...
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I know that it’s true it’s gonna be a good year
It’s almost Monday and the beginning of the work week. Now that we’ve all had our vacations it is time to get back to our routines. Even myself. I have to get back to my 300 words at least twice a week. This is the best time to get back into that mode as well.
I’ve been writing more. Not so much in blog form, but with Chrysanth NETime Diary and my regular notebook. That was one of my...
December 2009
1 post
That's when you know that you have to fly
As is the way when you write, that you’re supposed to work as you’re inspired and work continually. I, therefore, have to write something today because I haven’t put anything down on paper, even in my notebook journal, today. I wanted to write this blog post a few days ago anyway, so this will be another sporadically added entry. But no matter. As long as I keep this blog up a bit, I will be...
November 2009
3 posts
Please teach me gently, how to breathe
Today is my second post of the week, as proposed last post. I’ve just gone “jogging” today, after having a couple days off. I really jog for maybe less than ten minutes out of the whole thirty that I’m out there, but I’m training. I’m not a solid runner yet. I’ve done this off and on since Summer, so I’m not really a pro. Yet.
I had a good Thanksgiving yesterday; I ate once, then twice...
And that's how I came your humble narrator
This week Hope Clark suggested the No-Nos of blog writing. I’m an offender, I admit. The biggest crime of mine is number two on her list: “Not updating regularly. This lack of effort reflects on your respect for the readership. At least two times a week is decent.” So I’m going to try at at least write something a couple times a week. Well, I say that, but I don’t know if it will happen. I...
And I've done things in small doses
It’s weird how the temptation to get down on yourself shows up. First it starts with some little insecurity. You contemplate it for a day or two then you finally try to get it wrapped around your head that it’s all right. But in the meantime, while analyzing it, you decide, nope, not okay. That’s then when the self criticism gets a little hook to sink into you. That’s when you have to toss...
September 2009
1 post
Don’t know what I can’t describe
In my last post I forgot to mention how I realized that work is a lot like school. This doesn’t seem like much of an analogy, but when I was in school I wanted to spend my time daydreaming, writing, anything else that I wanted to do. I never could get into the mindset of just doing what I was supposed to be doing, just because someone said I should. Granted, I’ve grown up now and I understand...
August 2009
2 posts
Talk like an open book
There’s something to having a blog that doesn’t have your name directly linked. It’s not that I talk about anything I wouldn’t talk to with someone I saw directly, I just like having the freedom. There’s a nice, easy feel to knowing I have a blog that’s just for me, just to write down what I think and feel, without someone coming into work saying, “Hey, I read your post last night.” Not that...
Everybody just want to play the lead
I’m going to start this blog post now and post it whenever I get ready to do so. Maybe tonight, maybe Friday, maybe not until the weekend. I’ve had a bit of a rejuvenation in my post interests, which is usually how it goes. Post a few, stay a way for a while, post once, wait… But I’ve been having the feeling of being in high school, or even elementary school again. Like when the time at...
March 2009
1 post
Completely untitled blog entry
I don’t even feel like writing in this blog, but I will. I started writing this post a long time ago and never got around to publishing it. I’ve written a few things in Word at work but never got around to publishing anything either. So…here’s me going into a blog entry. I’ve not updated the version of Wordpress I have, nor have I updated any links, pictures,...
November 2008
2 posts
I know it's all a rut, you want me to prove it to...
This morning I was flipping through channels and I saw a Q&A topic up on the screen from the (stupid) Mike and Juliet show. It was for a guest (whose name is still unavailable online or in the show’s information) finance adviser. These people amaze me. I mean, aside from the obvious “you don’t understand my situation” aspect of “you have a job, and a nice paying...
One day like this a year'd see me right!
11/6/2008 07:16 So typing in a journal. I forgot I had that capability. I’ve just not written much of anything lately for and about myself. I kept thinking to, kept thinking I should start a new blog, get onto a new project but, alas, I have too many reasons to not. Old things tie you. You become so attached for so many reasons that it’s easier to go along with what was...
September 2008
1 post
There's no more need to pretend cause now I can...
When I first started this blog, years ago in an after party of my own, late one night at my parents’ house, setting up my LiveJournal account, I entitled my new world of internet wonder: “The Beginning is the End is the Beginning” (or was it the other way around? I forget.) Anyway, in all dramatic Billy Corgan fashion, I had started on a little endeavor that was without a...
July 2008
1 post
Don't be surprised. This change is my design.
I wrote this in my notebook as I was on my porch, smoking these old Camel lights that have been in one of my kitchen drawers for, oh a year now. I am like those stupid Become and EX commercials that talks about re-learning how to do certain things without cigarettes. For me, unfortunately, it’s writing. I’ve tried to write an entry for a while about the internal stuff that’s...
June 2008
3 posts
Your southern can is worth a dollar a half a pound
I have to step up on my platform, and call all of my Orlando pals to hear my speech regarding our “City Beautiful”. I found a random slide show on Youtube entitled Downtown Orlando that depicts the daytime colors and buildings that we’re all accustomed to, have grown familiar with and connect with as our place of “home.” That’s why when this wanker made the...
Its okay to lower standards in the name of a good...
Okay W.Bloggar, let’s update, shall we? I was going to write a whole opinion based Lost entry but I soon grew too distracted for such things. It’s an on going theorem based cult following that can’t be summarized in the mere limitations of a blog post. Besides, I watched the silly thing twice now and I just want to know how the next season (which starts in flipping 2009) will...
Its okay to lower standards in the name of a good...
Okay W.Bloggar, let’s update, shall we? I was going to write a whole opinion based Lost entry but I soon grew too distracted for such things. It’s an on going theorem based cult following that can’t be summarized in the mere limitations of a blog post. Besides, I watched the silly thing twice now and I just want to know how the next season (which starts in flipping 2009) will...
May 2008
3 posts
All dressed up to catch a glimpse of the list
Okay. Since it’s been long since I decided that I should update my blog with, yet another, random list of things, I will do so today. Again, there’s not a whole lot going on and this is the easiest way to make an entry. Here goes: — I’m still pondering going out tonight for the Barbs Reunion. — It sucks that it costs, at last visit to the gas station, $37 to fill up...
And I got what I got all despite you
I finally got accepted for publication! After going through the voting process for the school’s lit journal, I received a preliminary list of those submissions that were voted on; mine was not. However, the editor in chief said that we could suggest two more that weren’t on the list and, of course, I voted for myself again. (I’m starting to feel like a band geek who wants to...
I haven't left here yet but I'm trying
Good Lord, this has been forever since I’ve written an update. Oh well, as I said last time, there’s nothing that poignant or relatively memorable to mention lately. I finished up my submissions and editing and judging on submissions duties for my school’s lit magazine. I have a handful of stories I sent in (yes, I voted for myself) and a couple of book reviews. Even if one story...
April 2008
5 posts
The joy of repetition really is in you
Since I don’t really have anything to report in a blog update, I snagged this picture and decided to make, yet another, random list of things to mention: — After watching The Shape of Things to Come last week, I can see how they’re making it seem as if Sawyer is going to die, along with Claire and, hence, the baby, Aaron will have to be taken with Hurley, Kate and Jack. For the...
Will you give me back my dime?
Here I am again. Unmotivated, unsuccessful, unpublished, undesirable, uneducated, unmarketable, unemployed me. I applied for at least 50 jobs online today. The only phone calls I got back were from the phone company who had to change my service for me because I can’t afford frivolous things like Caller ID, some credit card collection agencies and my mother. Sometimes the creditors even...
It's worth the work it takes to build a dream
So for the next episode in the sitcom that is my life… I went to my parents’ for dinner because they promised to greet me with pizza. I had a small one to myself and I ate the whole thing. That, some fat free chips and a cup of apple sauce was all I had today so I’m not guilty for eating so much. It was good and it was worth every single calorie and fat gram I ingested from each...
Partner let me upgrade you
WP 2.5 and I have begun our new relationship. I wasn’t going to bother upgrading for a while since I’d heard some really negative comments about the new version, but thanks to Shane, I went ahead and took on the modern way of blogging. So far, so good. I’m with everyone else on the whole layout having an oddly large font scheme and the tabs not really being set up the way they...
I'm like a trash can holding all the information
I’ve been sick for a week and I have tons of work to do. I keep trying to sit here and type up all of my stories and the rest of the “novella” (if that’s what we’re calling it these days) but I have done nothing more than lie in bed, lie on the couch, take ibuprofen, Pamprin, asprin and apply various sports creams to my neck. (Asprin and Tiger Balm seem to be the...